Jesus

SO this was the week to end all weeks...literally. Depths o' despair for sure. Rock bottom? you bet! Just emotionally draining. Struggling to stay alive, fo sho. Attacks? SEveral hundred..maybe thousand.
Tonight, after a very hard discussion with a friend, I went to prayer and praise in the prayer house at church. On the way over, I was SERIOUSLY considering giving up following Jesus. I was counting the cost, emotionally, and it was WAY too high!! Anywho, I went. It was SO good.

I was in my seat, standing actually, so not in my seat, but anyway...and I remembered telling my friend, " If God would just tell me go to this room and He'd be there and it'd be great, I'd go" SO, tonight, I felt like God told me to go stand in the back (I'm a front row person). So, I stand in the back and, let me testify, the Holy SPirit showed up! I know, so crazy, right? Only, I felt Him for real. I sort of felt a little drunk, like just the edge was off..a spiritual buzz, if you will! (Calorie free..bonus!) So, I had this picture of me in a room...oh, it was dark in there..yeah, cause we were singing about light and I was picturing Jesus being the light and lighting up the room...because He is the Light...anyway, so He was like, come on out of the room and I did...with a little hesitation..ever so slight, but I went and He like locked the door so I couldnt' go back in except when He says its okay, and I was okay with that. I looked back, but not with longing, for suddenly there were fields and flowers and mountains and space and air and..freedom! wow, it was really good. ANd i wasn't one bit uncomfortable not being in control and peaceful. Good times. LIke, peaceful, peaceful. i mean, like, peace. crazy good.

purple hair

Well, hello. This is another Austin story. So, we go to Austin for a conference. I'm trying to save money and am goign to color my hair myself. It's a kit I've used before, though not in some time. So, I later it and lather it...it's kinda stinky.. and i'm looking and i swear some parts are lookign kinda purple, but i'm just like aww, it'll wash out. SO, i wash it some time later and it definitely had purple streaks where the really blond parts were. I mean, seriously? Who does this happen to? IT was really more of a lavender, but still. It was pretty funny. All i coudl do was laugh...and laugh...and laugh. It was funny!

Even when I'm not trying

So, I'm in Austin. We're at a restaurant. We're about to leave. Then, suddenly, there is a loud crash and liquid begins to fall on me. No, it's not thunder and then rain..it's not a bomb and debris..it's the tray of drinks from the table behind us and the waitress drops , like, the whole thing down my back. I rise b/c i notice i'm getting wetter and wetter and there is a HUGE puddle in my seat. and also ice and glass everywhere. Fortunately, I had on a hoodie and it took most of the ..whatever, but my tush was pretty wet as well. Additionally, my hair got a little wet. Though the waitress insisted it wasn't alcohol or was watered down, my jacket smelled of rum and my hair got crunchy that afternoon, clearly indicating sugar was part of the occasion. My point is, friends, I don't even have to try, this stuff just comes naturally.

Utopia

So, say there is this perfect place where somebody pays for your food and health insurance and you have better benefits than anybody else...no copay, all the speech, physical or occupational therapy you want. As far as food, there are not limits..you can buy Brie, organic pizza from California, ice cream from Vermont. So you can't get alcohol or cigarettes...I mean, really...would you let these good benefits go to waste? Oh, I forgot..you can also get FREE transportation to your appointments or reimbursement for gas if you want to drive yourself! Would you waste these benefits? I think not! But people do. I just don't get it. I mean, seriously. As I reflect, I think what do I waste? Is there something I have that someone might say the same thing about? Once I share this site with people, feel free to opine..as Bill O'Reilly would say.

Why Spastic Mom?

So, the thing you to know about Texas is that it goes from winter to summer...that's right spring is missing! So, we actually had some spring like weather and I decided to open the windows. Only, we have to be careful as some of the screens are broken and the cat likes to escape. And I'm out of tuna/salmon to lure her back in....anyway, so Nathaniel's room gets, like, no cross ventilation, so I put the box fan in his window to assist in air circulation. SO, i turn the fan on and out blows the box fan through the screen and out into the front yard. ( Spastic mom!) So I say to the kids...you guys are SO lucky to have such a spastic mom! I mean, who wants a boring mom who thinks things through, when you can have me blowing box fans out the window? I said, it used to really bother me that I am so spastic, but now i Know it's just how God made me, it makes people laugh, who am i to argue with His creation? I said, it only bothers me when I bump into stuff b/c i'm so spastic. SO, you guessed it, within the hour, when I was telling N goodnight, while walking out of his room...ran into the door frame. ahhhh, the joys of being me! i'll let you know when spastic mom strikes again! Till next time......

Starting up!

YAY! I started a blog. I have been encouraged to do something so everyone can continue to be updated on the craziness I call my life. I really have absolutely NO idea what I'm doing, so this will likely be riddled with mistakes. I'll learn as I go. THanks in advance for your patience.